Happiness...

Many times when you ask someone: "what do you want in live?", they say: "I want to be Happy."  But what is that actually 'Being happy'??  Happiness is a word that is so hard to describe. 
Ask someone who’s starving what would make him happy, he probably would say “A good meal once in a while”  Ask someone who has more than enough food and eat too much, he probably would say “If I could lose a few pounds that would make me happy” 

Happiness is so different for everyone and our definition of happiness will also change depending on in which stage we are in our lives. 

The most important thing is that we can find happiness in even the smallest things, that we don’t take anything for granted, because if we don’t appreciate the smallest thing anymore we will never know what true happiness is……

My grandmothers Sugar Pot

I always had something with that pot; since I was a little kid I loved it.  Although it’s nothing special, it’s just a brown speckled sugar pot with a lid.  But for me it is, it always was and always will be. 

When I became older I said when my grandmother dies there is only 1 thing what I want and that’s that pot. So now it’s standing for almost 11 years on my counter and when people wants’ to take a sugar cube I always say “Watch out that’s my grandmothers Sugar Pot and when something happens with it I will do something that will not be nice!!!!”  LOLOL.  

My grandmother was a very strong, special woman, not an easy one.  Oh no, she told you straight what she thought and when she asked something she wanted it done not now but done already yesterday. Hahaha..  Since I was a little kid I staid many times with her and later on I also lived with her.  I took care of her and she of me, and that she did, in a huge way…

I always was afraid for the day that she would pass away, she was nearly 85 when that happened and yes it was hard but I knew her time had come and that she would be in a better place…

R.I.P. Moe!!!!!!!      

From now on my road is one on roses, but then without the thorns,
that road I already had....

My deep Penny thoughts...

As I told, I would share some of my thoughts and how can I do it better then with this.  This is a mail I’ve sent a few days ago to a sweet friend of mine who asked how I was doing… J

Hello Sweets, I'm doing fine...
It's going with ups and down and lately it's going fast from one to the other....
It's so weird, but then again I understand as no other that I have to go through all of this. I realize that my eyes were open without seeing; my ears were open without really hearing... I know that I have to go through some deeper stuff to go to a next higher level...
it's just a matter of time, its right behind the corner.

I'm happy that they woke me up and feel a bit sad that I let it happen to myself. I mean that I can't see that deep anymore like I used to, that I don't listen or hear like I used to.
So I have to be prepared and some moments I can't wait to let it happen and other moments I feel like down, but that, I know is a trick to scares me….

Tom Ford - Spring / Summer 2011

Here it is, the long awaited secret Women's collection of Tom Ford. He brings his private show to the public with a short film with the highlights.

With a commercial like this, you just can't resist then buying this Perfume...

Viktor & Rolf --- Flowerbomb

Just a little understanding...

Not every day is the same or is as good or bad as the others. That we all know, because we all go through that, also as a single Mom or single parent.

Being a parent is not always easy, being a single parent is double trouble :))

There are moments that you're not feeling well, that the education of the children, the monthly payments etc are like a heavy weight on your shoulders.
When you are in a relationship those moments can be filled up by your partner but when you're all by yourself you can't. you can't hide or run away..

At those moments I wish my children would havemore understanding for the situation or how I feel. I can feel really mad and sad because they don't.
And then I feel guilty or a bad Mom because I also think that you cant expect of your children to understand it. But is that so can't you expect that????
It's like a scale that goes up and down.....
Is this recognizable, or Am I the only one with this kind of struggle????

My Intro...

Every day we all are going through so many things, good, bad, sad, funny, mysterious, random, beautiful, etc…  With that comes also lots of thoughts, from regular to special, from funny to sad, form superficial to in depth, etc… That’s why I thought hey why not share some of my thoughts.

I wanted to have a Title for it and after a little brainstorm session with myself; I decided to go with “My Penny Thoughts”….. Why that name?? Well to be honest, I truly hope that my thoughts will be worth a Penny and that you will be prepared to give one to read them….