Mosquito's why don't you leave me alone....

Mosquito’s a true plague from May till September.  The key question that we still have about them is why they attack me more than others… Well there are many theories about it :

The female mosquito is the one that bites (males feed on flower nectar). She requires blood to produce eggs.

Hm I didn’t know that, what I do know is that they are annoying and not just a bit.. As soon as you lay down so very cozy in your bed you can hear them Zzzzzz closer and closer and then, it’s like they are doing it on purpose, Zzzzz next to your ear. Ok pull up those sheets. Hmm what is itching so hard on my finger??? No she had me… Grrrrr!!!!  Zzzzz there she is again, lights on and the haunting can begin.  Where are you little monster????  There you are…. Yes, got y…. oops missed!!!!  Yes, Now I’ve got you, finally I can go to sleep.  Ooh so cozy when suddenly Zzzzz same story over and over again.  When you wake up in the morning, your eyes are swollen because of no sleep and your body is full with swollen, itchy mosquito bites.  Ooooh why me!!!!!! LOLOL!!!!

Now why is it that some attract them more than others??? Do they actually know, because I hear so many things like: the amount of carbon dioxide in the breath, pregnancy, body temperature, alcohol and odorant markers based on blood type, stinky feet,  and this is the best  - - -> > People who are really calm: it seems that our bodies produce certain chemicals that mosquitoes can detect when we're stressed, and they don't like them!

What do you do to get rid of them??? All tips are more than welcome....

Loving yourself....

When was the last time you’ve looked into the mirror, smiled at yourself and said hi?? When was the last time you’ve said to yourself “I love you”???

When was the last time that you were proud of yourself, and said “You did a great Job Girl!!!” and that you glowed and smiled because of it…. When was the last time you've given yourself a pat on the back and said "Well done".... 

Euh don’t you remember it anymore, or maybe you’ve never did it.  Or yeah, you did, but the feeling didn’t stay long....

Did you ever thought about that you maybe take yourself and what you are able to do or create for granted???? Yes I think we do that too much, take ourselves for granted, it’s so normal, everything what we do and what we are able to do, we just do without thinking….

Let’s start with thinking about the things we do and are able to do and the next time when we look into the mirror… Smile!!!!!  J

Pretender.....

To make everyone happy, I should put on my happy face. But would it make me happy? You know I'm not a pretender, I like it real!!!!

Grateful....

Sometimes we can be so stocked in our own ways, we are so used of everything and everyone around us…. We take to many things for granted or even worse we are feeling miserable for the things we don’t have instead of happy for the things we have… I know it so well and still I’m guilty on doing  it….

There are a few things that I truly want in my life right now or better for a while already, and due the circumstances I can’t have them now or even in the near future.  And to be honest at some days that can ruin my day, I can feel really sad and mad about it.  But I can also feel bad and sad because I let it take over.  

At those moments, It’s like the world isn’t turning anymore, or better everything is turning and rolling and moving forward and I’m standing still…. Time goes by and I forget to enjoy, forget to open my eyes to see the beauty that surrounds me, forget to open my ears to listen to the amazing sounds that want to comfort me…..  

But I know it will gets better,  I realize it because of the fact I write this, I’m aware of it and that means  I can work on it. So I can only be grateful because of the guidance that will always lead me back on the right track…  

Father's Day here and all over the world...

Last Sunday it was here in Belgium and today in almost all other countries of the world:  Father’s Day

A special day for all the dads all over the World, ‘Happy Father’s Day”, I even dare to say ‘Happy Father’s Day to all the dad’s who Deserves it…… 

Why do I have the feeling that Father’s day is not that important or don’t get celebrate as much as Mother’s day?  Is it because mine and my children’s father aren’t with us anymore???  Or is it because there is still a thing that taking care of the children is a mom’s job?  Or is it because there are more single moms then ever and lots of dad’s run away from their duty? 

I don’t know because to be honest it’s not always bad, there are Dad’s that take their roll of being a Dad very serious.  Their children mean everything to them, they live for them and you can see the love in their eyes when they look at their children….. And let us be honest how many Dad’s are out there with a broken heart because they are not allowed to see their children, how many fathers want to be the best dad in the world, but they can’t because they don’t let them be one....

I truly hope that people finally going to realize that it’s not only about them, but also about the other…. Be happy that the parent want to be the parent and let them be the parent instead of making their life miserable and don’t forget what impact it has on the children….

This song gives me goosebumps, goes deep into my soul.... I can play it over and over again.... How could I forget it for so many years, so grateful that I found it back.... :))

Happiness...

Many times when you ask someone: "what do you want in live?", they say: "I want to be Happy."  But what is that actually 'Being happy'??  Happiness is a word that is so hard to describe. 
Ask someone who’s starving what would make him happy, he probably would say “A good meal once in a while”  Ask someone who has more than enough food and eat too much, he probably would say “If I could lose a few pounds that would make me happy” 

Happiness is so different for everyone and our definition of happiness will also change depending on in which stage we are in our lives. 

The most important thing is that we can find happiness in even the smallest things, that we don’t take anything for granted, because if we don’t appreciate the smallest thing anymore we will never know what true happiness is……

My grandmothers Sugar Pot

I always had something with that pot; since I was a little kid I loved it.  Although it’s nothing special, it’s just a brown speckled sugar pot with a lid.  But for me it is, it always was and always will be. 

When I became older I said when my grandmother dies there is only 1 thing what I want and that’s that pot. So now it’s standing for almost 11 years on my counter and when people wants’ to take a sugar cube I always say “Watch out that’s my grandmothers Sugar Pot and when something happens with it I will do something that will not be nice!!!!”  LOLOL.  

My grandmother was a very strong, special woman, not an easy one.  Oh no, she told you straight what she thought and when she asked something she wanted it done not now but done already yesterday. Hahaha..  Since I was a little kid I staid many times with her and later on I also lived with her.  I took care of her and she of me, and that she did, in a huge way…

I always was afraid for the day that she would pass away, she was nearly 85 when that happened and yes it was hard but I knew her time had come and that she would be in a better place…

R.I.P. Moe!!!!!!!      

From now on my road is one on roses, but then without the thorns,
that road I already had....

My deep Penny thoughts...

As I told, I would share some of my thoughts and how can I do it better then with this.  This is a mail I’ve sent a few days ago to a sweet friend of mine who asked how I was doing… J

Hello Sweets, I'm doing fine...
It's going with ups and down and lately it's going fast from one to the other....
It's so weird, but then again I understand as no other that I have to go through all of this. I realize that my eyes were open without seeing; my ears were open without really hearing... I know that I have to go through some deeper stuff to go to a next higher level...
it's just a matter of time, its right behind the corner.

I'm happy that they woke me up and feel a bit sad that I let it happen to myself. I mean that I can't see that deep anymore like I used to, that I don't listen or hear like I used to.
So I have to be prepared and some moments I can't wait to let it happen and other moments I feel like down, but that, I know is a trick to scares me….

Tom Ford - Spring / Summer 2011

Here it is, the long awaited secret Women's collection of Tom Ford. He brings his private show to the public with a short film with the highlights.

With a commercial like this, you just can't resist then buying this Perfume...

Viktor & Rolf --- Flowerbomb

Just a little understanding...

Not every day is the same or is as good or bad as the others. That we all know, because we all go through that, also as a single Mom or single parent.

Being a parent is not always easy, being a single parent is double trouble :))

There are moments that you're not feeling well, that the education of the children, the monthly payments etc are like a heavy weight on your shoulders.
When you are in a relationship those moments can be filled up by your partner but when you're all by yourself you can't. you can't hide or run away..

At those moments I wish my children would havemore understanding for the situation or how I feel. I can feel really mad and sad because they don't.
And then I feel guilty or a bad Mom because I also think that you cant expect of your children to understand it. But is that so can't you expect that????
It's like a scale that goes up and down.....
Is this recognizable, or Am I the only one with this kind of struggle????

My Intro...

Every day we all are going through so many things, good, bad, sad, funny, mysterious, random, beautiful, etc…  With that comes also lots of thoughts, from regular to special, from funny to sad, form superficial to in depth, etc… That’s why I thought hey why not share some of my thoughts.

I wanted to have a Title for it and after a little brainstorm session with myself; I decided to go with “My Penny Thoughts”….. Why that name?? Well to be honest, I truly hope that my thoughts will be worth a Penny and that you will be prepared to give one to read them….